Oh, how wonderful life is in the beginning of every love story when so powerfully and closely we feel the presence of eternity and with shame for the first time completely convinced and honest we thank the lord for being ever born, never worthy enough of that feeling which, no matter how poor we are offers us shiny and boundless kingdom.

Only when we live with our loved ones as one - carefree, ecstatic and enchanted, easily we share even the things we don’t have, let alone dreams which can come true, and so full with trust, flying sky-high, we take the stars down for them casually, as if we were born with that rare art of a man in love.

Everything is done with a childish merriness like in a play that never ends, just to be loved by them even more, showing that we’ve already received the same from them, so being joyous and thankful we give in return as much as we can, fearing it would be not enough and not worthy of the unreachable love that makes us the chosen and the eternal ones.

Feeling vital and brisk, we turn everything into magic just for them and as we pass the mountain trail in each other’s arms heading for the peak, we spruce the firs with the whitest snows, and as we get down we melt the springs that will blue the Danube like the dear eyes once coloured our wishes, huge as the heavens, the first time we saw them.

Woven by dreams, the joyous spring morning of love easily surrenders to the light of the reality and those two spirits which had been one, must reluctantly wake and taste the everyday life, as the Sun rushes to its Zenith and mercilessly imposes the not so pleasant order.

What once in the beginning had been one slowly severs into two, through everything in this world, because when we love somebody then unconscientiously not only do we gladly accept the flaws and the virtues but also the entire family from which our beloved one carries the gene that had created the very basic character.

For the very first time love is on trial because usually in the beginning passion is what attracts the two people in love and that is at the same time the greatest danger, because only the equal passions survive, which is very rare, especially if they don’t think of having a family, being in a marriage.

All the trifles surface, the gravity pulls harder and harder from the heavens into the sordid realms of transience and rot, after which only one thing remains that could save love when the passion ends – that is Spirit, whether the man is aware of it or not.

The passion and the animality hungers more and more, bites, tears off and devours voraciously everything let alone the goodness for the Ego is now above it.

The Ego, like a fallen angel, cannot forget what once was divine, and the complexes arise as easily as love once arose.

Kisses and the gentle words burn the Ego now which doesn’t want to sacrifice or to give in.

The difference that once attracted the two, now takes its toll, for we must forgive and accept it all, or leave forever humiliated with downcast head.

Only then it is clear that love is serving, so if one of the two isn’t sacrificing enough - and there is no giving in and acceptance without that - then disparity is inevitable in the beginning and later on coldness, until in the end person wonders: “Is it possible I’m suffering because of someone who showed me cloud number nine and made me the happiest person ever?”.

My hero is a playwright who has had certain success throughout Europe; although young by years her spirit was old and noble. Eloquent, yet unobtrusive quiet and tactful, of aristocratic origins but somewhere inside almost without an ego; and if she had one it merely gave her a signature through the will in the art because she was even ashamed to write thinking that everything had already been written since Schiller and Chekhov held pen in their hands. Her hometown Vienna can be cold and distant, when you’re born as Sagittarius with Pisces ascending and Moon in Pisces in the 12 th house, and would sell your writing talent for a weekend at the warm Mediterranean coast, at the airy and blue Adriatic, because part of her gene is Italian but from the Balkan part of the peninsula where once her ancestors had lived, today belonging to Croatia.

She was so happy to travel this summer with her friend to a pine-overgrown island in Croatia, not foreboding that there she would meet the warmest scenery that inspires her imagination to create again. But now another creation happened when a Dalmatian, playing a guitar at a terrace, enchanted her with sounds she had been missing for ages. Her blood flushed into her face recognizing herself because in the sign of Sagittarius is her planet of love Venus with the ruler Neptune, which represents now not only her as an artist but also someone who will fall in love in a similar person. Love flared and two weeks passed in a blink of an eye, as the autumn repertoire and casts were waiting for performance in a city in Bavaria. She invited him to the premiere. And his ruler Mars is in Taurus in the 5th house, which is too sensual and too animal combination however masculine it might be, which must attract any women at the first glance. He surely is talented because his Venus conjuncts Neptune in the first house in Sagittarius but to play the blues and have more of a restless than sad eyes, is almost impossible which his obsession now is. And so he stayed with her in her apartment in Vienna. At the beginning it all seemed as a fairytale, but months passed and there was no sign that a family would emerge from that union.

Then she turned to me asking who she really was in the emotional sense and what could she expect from her boyfriend in the future. What was easiest for me to see was that he wanted to marry her immediately, which she confirmed, that he wants family and children, but even though she loved him she was not ready for that first of all because in his chart she would become the one who would maintain him as a mere housewife - which is not so bad at all, and her love was ready for that – but the literary note in her would become just a memory and her unconscious, her Spirit refused to be with him if he didn’t express himself and started to work as soon as possible. Because looking at his Mars in Taurus in the 5 th we see that as a young man he must have created something or at least lived off it before a child is born. Yes, even the good spirit haunts a man, now my hero, because her beloved has Moon in Taurus in the 6 th house in a bad aspect with Mercury in Scorpio which means that in his chart she is at the level of illiterate and self-centred housewife who argues all the time, and is far from the spiritual plane as Vienna is far from the Island of Brač. I tell her that she although not having the animal side which will want another male is more often dreaming of an intellectual who understands her, because as long as he plays she hears him, as soon as he stops he also disappears…

Deep inside she was enchanted by the sounds of his music but more than that she trembled that he would turn out to be her drama hero whose heart she would break unless he started to work, unless he showed he was able to stand behind his wife and support her with his music, and not the opposite; a great confirmation to her spirit would be that he was capable of expressing himself which would mean he had spirit.Her maternal side, her Moon in Pisces in the 12 th trine Uranus in Scorpio in the 8 th seeks especially talented man who wakes her maternal instinct but before all loves her with his spirit and not the passions. She is so special now with that Mercury in Capricorn in the 10 th in a perfect aspect with Saturn in Virgo in the 6 th – she had majored dramaturgy when she was 25, and with Jupiter in cancer in the 4 th trine Uranus trine Moon it is a curse for a woman to be born so many years after Shakespeare. Who would she talk to, who would she love, although she and found a man from the ambient of her genes, yet he is someone not willing enough to sacrifice with a far more modest spirit than hers because he is not ready for true suffering now, and we now that by his Saturn in cancer in the 8 th trine Mercury in Scorpio in the 12 th who hears all the sorrow of this world and in the end hears her as a blessing, but??? Many have what he has, but don’t make use of it, I tell her. She had felt him, she had supported him, but he seems not to give back where she expects the most.

Then I advise her literally to kick him out of the apartment if she wants to help her and him! Yes that is necessary because he is a Libra – the laziest in the world, with huge hedonism coming from Taurus Mars in the 5 th house, but I do not hold that against him so much because he has aesthetic line in himself, rather the fact that he makes a degenerate out of himself and ruins their love. He seems to care more about eating and drinking and being supported by his wife and to create – and doing so he degenerates no matter how extra his talent is, if he doesn’t start to work – to wake up. She followed my advice immediately and he found himself all alone in the cold January looking for a job for days, looking for anything just to prove that he is worth something. And after 20 days he found a job as a security in a coffee bar for some miserable pay, again it is Mars in the 5 th house, but he didn’t realise it was his salvation. Every night as he listened to an amateur playing he promised himself he would impose somehow. After only couple of days when he came to work the guitarist did not show up and he recognised the right moment, and presented himself to the audience and the astonished owner who wasn’t aware of who was his security, as well as he was astonished with himself. Because, more than being faithful to one’s own talent, sometimes it is necessary to convince the spirit with some more concrete things. They stayed together and I, impressed with her ability to understand her unconscious which had summoned me, am writing this pledging you not to be so vain regarding your talent because it is not yours, rather try to deserve it since it was up to the free will all along. Salvation and disaster are equally emphasised in the character of these two people as well as in others’, because there are no good or bad horoscopes.